My Taylor.......
She'll be 15 in a few days. *sigh* I've been thinking or reflecting quite a bit about her 14 years 362 days of life. Wow! Where did the time go? Carissa went in Taylor's box of pictures tonight. She dumped out half the box. I had them all separated by date/age. So there I sat looking through years of pictures, re-separating them, and enjoying the memories.
The first years of her life went fast. I worked a lot and went to school. I wanted to do everything "right" for her. It was Taylor that God used to truly save me. I remember taking her to church on Sundays. She was always excited to go to, "The church that had donuts." (New Horizons)
I met Martie a month after Taylor turned 2. Although he was an answer to prayer, he was not where the Lord wanted him to be. (and neither was I) However God did something truly radical with two rebellious people. He caused us to fall in love with Jesus as we fell in love with each other. We were married when Taylor was 4. They also shared vows during our ceremony.
I started homeschooling Taylor in the 2nd grade. I didn't know how that was going to go and I was scared to death. However, the Lord had showed me clearly that I was to teach her. That first year we did everything I could think of. I wanted to check off every box, attend every field trip, and make lot's of friends.
Skipping ahead... Taylor is now in her 9th grade year! We have continued to teach her at home. God has blessed our obedience to Him. Don't get me wrong, it's been hard. Whenever you're with your children 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, teaching them, correcting them.... it is going to be hard. We have seen the worst of each other, but hopefully we've both witnessed the Lord's work in all those moments.
Taylor is a beautiful young adult. She is independent, responsible, selfless...I have enjoyed watching her grow and become who God has designed her to be. She is artistic. Last year she taught herself how to play the guitar. She can draw. Her cooking/baking skills blow me out of the water. Did I mention she keeps me in line with fashion?
People tell me how lucky I am to have a "Helper." I always cringe with that word. Taylor is my daughter just like my other children. She is not (necessarily) my "Helper." The things she does for me and her siblings she enjoys and does so willingly. I try to protect her individuality. She has such a special bond with each of her brothers and sisters. (That could be a blog in itself)
God has used Taylor to teach me so many things like:
- Smile more
- Listen more
- Be spontaneous
- Make dessert (Just because)
- Rest
- Love Jesus
- Trust Jesus
- Forgive
- Have fun
- Laugh
- Sing
- Try any recipe (at least once)
- Serve
- Talk, ask questions
- Pray
This will be a crazy month. She got her braces off yesterday. She'll be getting her driver's permit next week. We've planned out her High School path. As I type this Martie is researching law schools. She wants to eventually go to Law School. Taylor is focused and I know that she will and can do anything she puts her mind to. We are praying that the Lord will continue to direct her steps and that He will use her for His glory.
No matter what Taylor Alise will always be my baby girl. I am so proud of her and will continue to support her as she grows in her "Adult" life. I am so excited to celebrate her 15 years of life this month. I thank God for trusting me to be her momma.