God's timing

For those of you who don't know my hubby is the pastor of our church. When we first started attending this church there were about 10 people in the pews and they were all older. So, I really did not think this was where I wanted to be. However, I knew God wanted us there. Over the course of time we have had more members join, we've seen some people come to the Lord, and we've seen members become active in the church. During this time the Trunick family joined us. They were a total blessing to our family. Since we were the youngest couple here and we were the only ones with children at the time, we were excited about them joining us. They were young, in love with the Lord, had two boys the same age as ours, and they were excited about the ministry. They helped us establish a "children's ministry" as well as many other things.

Last weekend the Trunick family moved. (job opp. closer to family) This was devastating to me. Carrie and I grew very close and we were truly that "iron sharpening iron". I was probably the most sad for my boys and the ministry. So lately I've been really depressed. I have really been fighting it, knowing it was self pity, and I needed to be filled with the joy of the Lord. Knowing things and doing them are two very different things.

As far as ministry goes, yes it hurt us. We need people! We need people that are devoted to the Lord. We need couples, families, young people that are willing to step out of their comfort zone, take a risk, and serve the Lord so that we can win more souls for Christ. We need people who are excited about what Christ did for them. We need people who are ready to use their gifts in music, in teaching... It's hard to have a great youth/children's program, or a wonderful music ministry if we don't have the people.

Most of my friends are in churches were the preaching is great, the "programs" are great, everything is just GREAT!!! I often get jealous of this. Then God reminds me how easy it is to get comfortable in those churches. Through our church, God constantly reminds me, He's in charge. I don't know what He's doing in Parkwood, all I do know is He's working on me.

Well I originally wanted to tell you about what has happened since the Trunicks left. Last Sunday a church in the area had their VBS. They are a wonderful church that has kindly donated there stuff to us for the last three years. (praise God for them) We decided this year to let our kids go through their vbs. We took all the children plus one. When we got there, to my surprise they take children from babies up. So we enrolled them all. (except Tabitha) The boys have never been away from us like that, so they were a handful all week. Martie was able to stay with me to help until he had to leave for work at 7:30. (it was over at 8:30) During this time we realized there was a women's bible study going on. I was so excited. Martie mentioned it to me, and I was like yeah I know. I kind of shrugged it off. I'm terrible about meeting new people. I need to step out of my comfort zone.

Day 2 of VBS, we took the kids in and Martie hurried me off to the bible study. Much to my disappointment the door was closed. I AM NOT GOING IN THERE!!! So I paced around until my sweet, loving, dedicated, and DETERMINED hubby found me. He so kindly opened the door and gave me a little pat. I do love that about him. Inside I was glad he made me, my pride was just to big to open the door myself. Well, inside I met a bunch of really nice women. One girl who had spoke to me the first night was in that bible study. So we talked some more and agreed to exchange numbers. She is a pastor's wife, mother of two toddlers, she is wanting to homeschool, and get this she has 21 siblings. Her parents are very big into adoption. How cool is that!!!

I was telling her about the church and about the Trunick's leaving and she looked at me and said, "well maybe God's timing is perfect". How true is that? God is always working, and His timing is perfect. He knows what I need, He knows what my family needs, and He knows what Parkwood needs. God is working on me in so many ways. I have been so convicted of my sin. That is a painful process, but a good one at the same time.

No, I cannot make anyone join us in ministry, nor can I find the perfect friend for me and my family, but God knows what I do need. He will supply what I NEED. The thing I need to concentrate on, is my relationship with Him. I need to focus on Him and His word. I need to be a doer of His word, and not merely a hearer. I praise God for my hubby who "pushed" me into that bible study, I praise God for my new friend, and I praise Him for that bible study.